midestream

liking nanami/gojo is so hilarious cuz almost everyone follows that same 'you were never my first choice my actual soulmate died so i'm turning to you for comfort and touch' narrative for angst and nobody considers that kento just would not do/ go for that.,:,,. like so much of the content (written work especially) centers their relationship around other ships and characters.. how does that work 😭 why is satosugu driving the bus?!

i am willing to die on the geto and nanami would be a good villain duo hill!

i can't even pinpoint what sort of a relationship they would have.. geto referred to the people in his group (cult) as family but i feel like that wouldn't work the same for him and nanami. not lovers, not friends, not family.. i guess i could say peers but that seems too cold. even though they aren't on the same footing exactly they have an understanding, geto wouldn't push him to do anything but he always has his questions. "are you happy with what you do nanami?" geto would ask this a million times and nanamis answer remains unchanged, no. it's all work in nanamis eyes and work is shit!! i don't think he would blame geto or anyone else for having such a depressing life because all of his choices are his own, he knows no matter what he chooses he will feel the same. so he stays because in the end it all boils down to why not? but i think the reason i really want to see them as a duo is because geto puts all of his feelings into killing. he is merciless but his reasoning is so strong, its strange to think that the fascist maniac has more emotion than his partner thats actually morally intact (for the most part). before i thought kento and getou would have this sort of 'i am a righteous man who just believes in what is right and wants a peaceful life so i will follow whoever i believe can give me that'/'i know there is something different about me, these differences show me that i am better and because i can, i will' but they have both strayed far from what is right because they've been fueling each others fires (sort of like dio & pucci lol) but kento wouldn't follow geto blindly. as i've said before all of his decisions are all his own so i don't know.. maybe geto is just a convincing man.

sound like such a nerd rn but i could talk about this forever 🤍 fucked up people that care for and understand each other are goated

curiosity will lead me even if it's astray its all for me
my heart is too big for this world and its an overload i cant fit it in my body please beat it back in my desires are uncontrollable and spill out like pouring water in a cup that's already full
everything is for me it is all for me but i won't keep it to myself i choose to share it there will never be enough it will never be enough

at that stage in my life again where i feel like cutting everybody off out of nowhere .. lolol

am i a collection of things all on my own ? is it all on me, or can i still get upset with you? you did not rip me apart .. you just watched while i did it to myself. you take what is left of me and make something that is glorious in your eyes. but how long does that last? you are forever changing , so i must change with you . even you can't keep up, but you'd never admit it. try to put me back together, but you did it wrong... you will continue to do it wrong. you lose more every time, but you try again, not for me, but for your own sake. do you see me for what i am, what i can be, or am i still just your incomplete piece? you sit in the passenger seat, yet you still have so much control. you are shaping me into something i cannot begin to understand, but it is not all on you, it was still i that leaned into the hand

listening to the glee vers of blame it on the alcohol... too good

no longer a punk but im still iffy on what to say about this guy... where to start .. how to type it all. maybe some things are best if they stay locked in the brain

hiii ʕ•ᴥ•ʔ

i like that everything comes in its time even it feels too late or too early, there are late bloomers and early ones too i suppose. nobody .. nothing is exempt from that

going thru that thing again where i become strangely obsessed with something i already had a phase with except the phase before was more moderate and now i just have a million thinkpieces and after thoughts about it . it is jjk ( and the pain of it all 🤣😂) this time i've drafted like three posts about it already everything is suddenly hitting like a ton truck and im really losing my mind